AVN part 2
Oh shit! I am feeling worse today than yesterday. Fuck! Not good at all because my schedule gets fucking crazy from here until the end. I get to make up and order coffee from room service. I get to the booth and warn everyone that i am a little under the weather. We get there a little early so we can actually walk around some.The booth is fun, same as yesterday and i am figuring it's gonna be pretty uneventful. We do the damn thing and finish up our day. I invited the girls to attend my late night party at Revolution. I rush through the end of my day because i have 10 things going on that night. Back at the hotel i shower and hall ass to get ready for my most important plan of my trip, to walk my bestfriend down the aisle!!
I jump in a cab to get to their hotel so we can all ride to the chapel together. I don't even have time for dinner, so i grab yet another coffee and a scone to hold me over til the reception dinner. They are both so cute and a little nervous. I am smiling from ear to ear holding the camera and the wedding rings in my purse. BTW, I am the only witness that will attend. They decided four days ago to get hitched now in Vegas. They had been wanting to get married in Vegas and knew i was going to be there. She also knew that i had a feature booking for the weekend they had planned their blessing in out hometown. I am honored to be there. I love them both and wish then the best life has to offer always. It was very pretty and in my best friend's true personality. When the reverend asked if she took him to be her husband her response was "Totally!". That's my girl!
After the wedding we went to sushi at Mandalay. I had to rush through a little to make it to meet Jamie Lynn. I was to be her date to the grand opening of the Penthouse Club. My friends were invited but being true newly weds decided to head back to the room, if ya know what mean! I got to the club and ran into at least 10 of my favorite models to work with including Celeste Star and Justine Jolie. We hopped a bus over to Tao to shake our butts a little. I hated that club. Even with VIP status and table it was a bitch to get in and out of and they pack too many people in. It made me want to get to Revolution so much fatser but my date had her obligations.
I decided to bail in a cab and head over because i knew people would be showing up soon. Jamie Lynn was to meet up after she had done her time with the Penthouse Club again. I guess ex-Pet's of the Year should attend! lol! Jeska and Kristen are already waiting on me. We get in and nothing is set up and the guy i had arranged everything with is MIA. Great!!! The crew there was awesome and swept us to the table directly in front of the DJ booth. As more sexy ladies (ie Darenzia and Jamie) they moved us to an even more exclusive table with more privacy. This is how the nickname "patient zero" begins. I like to kiss. I am under the weather. No one tells me "no" even though they know about my illness.
The party was amazing!! I have to thank the crew at Revolution again. From kicking off my shoes and jumping from couch to couch to mingle to the shots they kept send our way, we had a great fucking time!! I will so be going back!

AVN part 1 extended version
I arrive to Vegas on a Tuesday. I decide to meet up with some friends for diiner but decide not to leave the hotel. January 9th is the first day i will work the Strip Las Vega booth at the AEE/AVN convention. I stay up later than i should. Those two hours coming from Texas really do make a difference! I am set to room with the exquisite Jamie Lynn for the duration of my stay. She checks into the room at 6am. I may have grumbled hello but she is kind and in and out quiet as amouse. I wake up to the alarm and notice that i am groggy. I jump through the shower and head to make-up. The make-up artist has a room down the hall from me- super convenient! She was the same MA that made me pretty for my photo shoot. A lovely German woman with shared fondness for outrageous fake eyelashes. She makes me pretty and off to the shuttle with the girls i just met and will be working with: Holly Morgan,Jeska and Kristen.
Right away i notice that me and Kristen think similar and can almost automatically finish the other's sentences. We get to the booth which is in a horrible location. We are basically in the back of the convention hall. I am not as brave in the others. I wore my sweats over our equired uniform: fishnets, booty shorts and wife beater. So i start my day with a strip tease, not so shabby.
Working the booth was actually fun! I got to interveiw porn stars and company owners. We signed copies of the AVN issue of Strip Ls Vegas for fans, drank coffee, and giggled alot. I also started to notice that i wasn't feeling very well, but didn't let it get to me. My best friend and her boyfriend were coming to Vegas and so was one of my favorite ex-boyfriends. After work i met up with my people for some Sushi and an impromptu bachelor/bachelorette party at Revolution. I ended up meeting some of the people who worked there who incouraged me to throw my own small party the following night. A free bottle of Kettle with my name on it if i brought girls. Of course all i said was "Done!".
I ducked out of the bar early and after only a couple drinks because i still wasn't feeling 100 percent. I went up to my room and fell asleep before Jamie ever got back to our temporary home. I needed rest for what the rest of the weekend had in store!

Past couple months, Part 1
What i did with my personal time...... First thing was to book the hotel in Dallas. I wanted to stay some place nice and close to Texas Stadium. I drove North from Austin and my little brother drove in from Lubbock. Ah, football! I am from Texas there for it is in my blood. However, my brother and i are fans of the Greenbay Packers!!! I spent way too much for the tickets on Ebay but i knew when i clicked the buy it now that it was worth every cent.
So we get there and spend some time with my brother feeling sorry for me. Then we decide to both get over it with a 12 pack of beer! I slept better that night than i had in a while but still only managed to get 5 hours. We got up and ordered room service and prepared for the coolest day of our football obsessed lives! We had never seen our fave team play live before. I slid on my Packers stocking cap while my bro put on his Favre jersey, mardi gras beads, and cheesehead.
We left the hotel super early because we heard that we might be able to get autographs. We didn't get any, but it was so cool to watch them warm up. The whole experience was awesome. We ate sausage in a tortilla and drank more beer. We cheered our team until we were hoarse. Every time we scored our surrounding Packer fans would rub the cheese on my brothers head. Then Favre got hurt and we lost.
As fucked up as it sounds, that game gave me clarity i had been lacking. It made me feel like me again, something that i didn't realize i hadn't felt in a while. Made me realize how important my family is and how the few true friends i have are the greatest in the world.

fooseball
What i did with my personal time...... First thing was to book the hotel in Dallas. I wanted to stay some place nice and close to Texas Stadium. I drove North from Austin and my little brother drove in from Lubbock. Ah, football! I am from Texas there for it is in my blood. However, my brother and i are fans of the Greenbay Packers!!! I spent way too much for the tickets on Ebay but i knew when i clicked the buy it now that it was worth every cent.
So we get there and spend some time with my brother feeling sorry for me. Then we decide to both get over it with a 12 pack of beer! I slept better that night than i had in a while but still only managed to get 5 hours. We got up and ordered room service and prepared for the coolest day of our football obsessed lives! We had never seen our fave team play live before. I slid on my Packers stocking cap while my bro put on his Favre jersey, mardi gras beads, and cheesehead.
We left the hotel super early because we heard that we might be able to get autographs. We didn't get any, but it was so cool to watch them warm up. The whole experience was awesome. We ate sausage in a tortilla and drank more beer. We cheered our team until we were hoarse. Every time we scored our surrounding Packer fans would rub the cheese on my brothers head. Then Favre got hurt and we lost.
As fucked up as it sounds, that game gave me clarity i had been lacking. It made me feel like me again, something that i didn't realize i hadn't felt in a while. Made me realize how important my family is and how the few true friends i have are the greatest in the world.

back to life
I have taken some personal time away from my website. I hope people understand. My personal life was really shitty for a little while and i needed to get my shit together. I am feeling much better about life than i have in a long time. It's crazy the things we go through on our individual journeys to get us to the places we are supposed to be. I feel at peace and i am ready to work, laugh, and play again!
Fair warning: i am being more real and open. My journal is going to reflect that. I am going to say and do whatever i feel like doing. Single girls get to do that and i am taking full advantage. I was thinking about quitting my public persona altogether and being completely celibate privately. And then i pulled my head out of my ass! I must thank my friends in Florida because they helped me more than they will ever know! But that's another entry....

Baton Rouge Gold Club!
I always have so much fun there! It is in my top 3 clubs of all time. (The other two are Tootsie's and T's). I have become friends with several of the employees and dancers. I got to see all my buddies, like Harry D and Craig, who come into say hello. I also got a hand made bracelet and necklace. I was working to see the LSU tigers victory against those other tigers. OMG!!! The club was insane! Everyone was on there feet yelling and jumping, and hugging. I am not much into college ball but it was so cool to see the support of a college town. Since i am from Lubbock it made me feel like i was home for a week, which hasn't happened in a long time!
But something else happened that week too. Something i though was pretty special. I got to meet a long time friend/fan in person for the first time. This is the second time this year that has happened to me and i thought it was so cool. He drove 4 hours just to see what i can do on stage. I wish i could've spent more time because i stay so busy in that club, but i had a blast anyway! If you ever run into Jimmythehat (fake handle to protect the innocent) be jealous, be very jealous. A toast to you Jimmy, and watch out for those candles!!! hahaha!

sumthin new for merch
I shot a calendar for a company called Nerdcore. I don't know if you've ever heard of them, but they do some pretty rad stuff! I have to tell the whole story and the story actually starts a few months back. I had shot with the gorgeous photographer Cherie Roberts back in June. We used the guys who started Nerdcore house as a location. They showed me the calendar that they had done for 2006 and i thought it was brilliant. As all know, i myself am a big nerd so i of course loved the idea for the 2007 version. I told them at that point that i wanted to be in the calendar. Fast forward to September...Cherie emails me and tells me that they are gearing up to shoot. I emailed back and told them in the nicest way possible that i hoped it took longer to shoot than planned because i was going to be on tour and wanted t be in it. I guess the jinx worked cause they booked me for last week, well, two weekd ago originally but had to reschedule (that's what i get for the jinx). Things were not looking pretty though. There were a million problems trying to get a location so the Nerdcore crew decided to have a guerilla shoot experience. No location. No permits. Just topless me, Cherie and her camera, the owner of Hotwax cosmetics and a few of the nerdy-boys running around down town LA!It was pretty scary for a minute. Homeless people pop out of the woodwork in downtown LA!We got it handled....almost got so busted a thousand times but i am officially a cyborg. I hope the pics turned out awesome! I am soooo stoked and i will post where to find them when they become available. Yay!
Oh shit! Gotta email that says you can go to www.totallynerdcore.com to pre-order yours. They drop Nov. 15 and i might run out to LA for some comic shop appearances. I'll keep everyone posted here on my site's schedule. I can't freaking wait!

Cassia Riley makes me wet!
Cassia Riley is smoking hot! That girl is something else. She teased me all day long when we did our Danni.com "In Bed" show. I think i like everything about her..... I totally wanted to hang out with her while i was in LA but our schedules just didn't meet up. The stars were not aligned. Hopefully next time.... Til the i will dream about her kisses. They were as fabulous as they looked. I totally have a crush. Just a little one......;)
I miss LA. I have been away for far too long but i also love being out on the road. The duality of my life is very appealing to me. If traveling becomes too much for me to handle (yeah right!) I have LA and when LA is too much to bare (hehe, play on words) i have the road and the rockstar life. Except i stay in places longer than a night but it is similar to the traveling of a rock tour. All nice hotels, room service, and random people to kiss on after a few drinks. I am much more subdued in LA. I still go out and have drinks on occasion but it seems that my friends" form various clubs across the US like to get me drunk. I have literally have had bartenders refuse to take it easy on me. Now that i quit smoking, it is alot easier to get away from the bar. I just tell 'em that it might make me want a cigarette.
Oh, and speaking of cigarettes, i want to thank the few people i have drank with in the past couple months who have not given me one or let me get one from someone else. I really don't even crave one most the time! Yay me....and them! Without them i may have fallen off the wagon. Kisses!

sex?
Sex stories......hmmmmmm......i can't think of some story per say but i can think of situations. I love Sunday sex. That's my favorite right now. I've been on the road alot and the person i have sex with doesn't come with me. Fortunately i have seen him every Sunday. Oh, and, yes, it's a guy this time. Sunday sex started about a moth ago. All bookings end on Saturday so i have got to see him every Sunday. It's not any where close to the same every time but it has some common factors. The only common factors are the person and that the sex happens in waves. It's like fuckfest day. Neither of us have too much to do on that day and i guess we gotta eat and occasion see some friends or hit a movie but the only thing that matters on Sunday is that we are both completely physically satisfied. And we nap and start over again. Sometimes it's rough and sometimes it's sweet. There is oral and anal and all fun things but the best thing is that it goes on and on. I have to say if i keep this one for any length of time i want it to become ritual and i think all "couples" should try it. (When i say couple, i mean everything from favorite fuck buddy to spouse of 30 years.) It is awesome to just devote a day to seeing how many times you can cum in one.
That's my prescription for sex at this time. ;)

more catch up
After Vegas was El Paso, TX. I would say it was nice to be in the home state but El Paso is so much different than Lubbock or Austin so i didn't feel "at home" but it was cool. First of all i can not say enough positive things about the club. The staff rocked and the girls were cuties. They took great care of me in every possible way. Many thanks to the for all their hospitality.
Then i had a couple rough weeks. Not naming names but i had a super rough time at one club. It really got me down and i was so close to giving up featuring. If you know anything about me it's that i love to dance. It's like my favorite thing in the world. So for me to be thinking about ditching it is huge. I have to take breaks from time to time form the traveling but you never hear me say that i'm not going to do it anymore. The whole experience really had me down.
This past week i went and shook my ass in Milwaukee and realized that not all clubs are created equal. I had been there before. I hadn't been back in a while because i had limited feature bookings in order to concentrate on modeling and dabble in some acting. Most of the old staff has switched to it's club in Juneau (which is beautiful) but i had a super time. I was so sad about things when i arrived and they rallied around me as not only people i have to work with for a few days but as friends. They gave me my faith back in not only dancing but in people because it was one person who had made that one experience so bad. I am a lucky girl that for that one piece of shit i had not one, but two clubs show me much love!
I worked in Milwaukee but i got my poker on in Juneau. I attended the first of the Juneau poker league home games. I lost but i had a great time doing so. I send my love and never ending gratitude to Tim, Amanda, Parker, and my boy Lee. Big thanks to the owners Jon and Craig who keep asking me back. If you are ever at either one of these clubs, tell them i say hi and if you are feeling generous buy them a drink for me! I love Wisconsin!

catch up 1
Like i said, i am writing about the past for a while to catch everyone (and myself ;) up with the present. So let's talk about Vegas baby. I was absolutely not going to attend the Exotic Dancer Magazine Gentlemen's Club Expo this year. I have been every year and find the balance of work and play required required absolutely exhausting. Two weeks before the convention i got offered to work for STRIP Las Vegas magazine. A photo shoot and to attend a few functions while repping the magazine. Since all nominations had been announced and i had already publicly had refused to attend i knew i wouldn't have to worry about working too hard. Like always, there was too much drama. Guess i'm too laid back for the bullshit that comes along with a bunch of people who think they are special, but i did manage to have a fine time and find my balance.
The work was actually fun. I went to parties for a job. How cool is that! I did the worked agreed upon except for the one thing i really wanted to do because i got my twice yearly cold and that was to attend a fight. I also got to hang out with people i enjoy and do things that I wanted to do like hang at the topless pool at Mandalay, buy a new purse, have a dinner date with the hottest guy ever, and see a show and check out the Wynn. I won't shun Vegas or conventions again thanks to this trip!

oops! i did it again
Ah, LA! I have missed it so much. I have been on tour now for a while. I haven't been in any city longer than a week since the end of June. Pretty crazy, huh? Now is time for me to slow down a little for the next month. Otherwise i might burn out. I need to write about all my adventures to keep everyone up to speed. I think it might make this crazy life a little less lonely if i share a little more of myself. Everyone sees the shell of a person but i think that the shell is superficial and, even in this business, the heart and soul of a person always matters.
I am going to be in LA for a couple weeks. I am working some, but i have to make time to play too. I have plans to see friends i haven't seen in months and go to the happiest place on earth for a rollercoaster or two and some dorky pin trading. It always makes me feel better about life in general and it's cool how much i can get my head straight at an amusement park. I hope everyone's week is as peaceful as mine will be in the chaos of life! Ciao for now!

Back in action
Yay! I got a new laptop! My old laptop sucked and would freeze up all the time. So....now i can have fun with my journal at will. I have so much to say but should try to space it out.
I had a great time at Al's Diamond Cabaret a couple weeks ago. If you came to see my show, thank you sooo much. I had a blast!

My site is back up
I know alot of your were concerend that my site was down for a couple of weeks..dOn't worry everything is back to normal now..I even got a few new enhancements to make my posting of content even easier.

My webmasters server crashed..and all their data was lost luckily they had my site backed up they just hasd to restore it.

We are good to go now.
thanks for stickin around
Zoe